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Friends versus lovers

Feeling like serious crap. Think I have gastro again.

Am concerned that I am building a relationship with doc in my head. He hasn’t committed to anything. He has never kissed me or implied that he wanted to. Just because we spend hours in conversation doesn’t mean he’s going to suddenly ask me to marry him.I kinda want him too though. How bizarre is that? I want doc to ask me to marry him. That’s absurd. I’ve never kissed the boy, met his parents, friends etc. How can I be thinking in this manner. My traitor’s heart whispers that no one spends that much time with someone this they want. My heart is lying to me. Get a grip.

WE ARE JUST FRIENDS. I have to remember this. FUCK IT. I gave up smoking for you.

Calm down. Friends is good – better perhaps then spending the rest of out lives together. Not that I’m bitter. Oh well, we’re spending Christmas together. Kinda sorta love him but I’ll get over it.


He’s just not that into me

Been a while since I blogged. Been pretty busy with work, and trips and national festivals. Been busy crying over Doc, laughing with Doc, gossiping with Doc and the latest thing is religion class with Doc.

I’m a Catholic and I don’t need lessons from a convert. The thing is, that he is not wrong but I feel weird being lectured by a 26 year old convert. Must make him watch Father Ted and Dogma for a laugh so he can lighten up on the religiousness.

Ok so he’s the perfect man for me but I’m pretty sure that he’s just not that into me. If he was he would have kissed me already and he hasn’t. I don’t believe that boys turn friends into lovers so I think I’ll put on a white dress and a melancholy manner in traditional 18th century behaviour for the jilted.