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Arg

If one more person tells me that exercise cures depression, I will freak out. I FUCKING KNOW already, which is why I exercise when I can. It’s hard to work up to doing 40 minutes cardio when I can barely get out of bed.

I want to sleep for a thousand years maybe. Rip Van DS might be nice. People who have not been clinically depressed have no notion of what it is like. It’s a chemical imbalance in the brain people. It’s a medical condition. It’s not laziness.

It is impossible to explain when those same people have their own preconceptions.

I’m too depressed to write any more.

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Feeling better

On the advice of my dear friend BonBon I’ve split up my meds – 50mg in the morning and 50 mg in the evening. All the online advice, advises against this but it is the single most useful idea, a medical person has come up with, because for me it actually works. I’m feeling less depressed. I can sleep and I can wake up. I haven’t had an Ambien in over a week and I’m actually well rested. I can hardly believe it.

I don’t think it is just the meds. I’m doing an engaging and exciting project at work which makes it a joy to go in in the mornings. Of course, the project means I’m working up to three hours overtime a day but I can’t resent it because now I actually enjoy my work. Things are mostly looking up.

But my dear friend Kath, is leaving and I’ll miss her terribly – more than anyone who has left before. Kath I love you and will miss you terribly x