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I’m a fucked up girl in a fucked up world…

My ankles and feet have been severely swollen for at least eight months and someone suggested that it might be a heart thing. Yesterday I asked one of my doctor friends to listen to my herat. He discovered a systolic murmur. I know that I’ve got to get an ultrasound to be sure but fucking hell. How many diseases can one person have?

  • PCOS
  • lump in breast
  • PTSD
  • Compassion fatigue
  • And now a heart murmur

So I stopped smoking. It’s my second day clean and I miss the smokes. I miss the inhalation, the feeling of coolness, the whole shebang. But I have stopped and I will not take anyother puff.  I am so tempted but I must not.