When friends wound II

I know that friends can be careless and so I’m trying not to take what BJ said to heart. Just because he triggered me with a remark, doesn’t mean I have to never respond to him again. I’ve been mentally composing an email since my crying fit to explain to him why I am upset. I think to say “I thought you stronger than that” when a person is depressed is cruel but I know he didn’t mean to be cruel. I don’t think the middle class cis white male that he is can learn. He’s 29 and still living with his parents. Should I write the email? I don’t know.

As for Bon, she’s a nurse so she knows what depression is. She wasn’t speaking as a nurse but as a friend. Should I let the rape jokes pass just because she doesn’t condone rape? Do I have the right to correct her and does she have the right to be offended at the correction? I think I’m in the right but since apparently I appear “hostile” these days, maybe it’s better to bite my tongue and just pretend to be a shiny happy person around her. I’m sure most “friends” won’t give a damn anyway. I just thought she was someone who I could be myself around. Clearly not.

I am lost but not broken, at least yet. Fuck you BJ and Bon, fuck you very much indeed.

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2 responses to “When friends wound II

  1. LOL I love reading your crazy somewhat unstable blogs…I suppose in a way they are consitent in the way you are always depressed, down or telling someone to fuck off. LOVE IT 🙂

    However, as much as I do enjoy reading you, I hope you can find some peace and allow yourself to be happy if the situation arises!
    Dz-Chick

  2. Thanks Dz-Chick. I must come across as a crazy person! Glad you like reading about it. I’m very up and down these days as you can probably tell.

    I think things will get a lot better when i go home.I’m hoping to take some time off and do nothing for a couple of months.

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